You are a beautiful you.

Do You Believe In Love?

Written June 25, 2011; Dedicated to untamed emotions

Do you believe in love? 
Or will you settle for less. 

Do you believe in trust?

Or is truth too much to confess.

Are you blinded by the looks,

Or do you look beyond the flesh?

How do you judge a book;

The cover or the context?

How we judge is up to us.

How we live is the same.

Do we love or do we lust?

There's only us to blame. 

Don't close your eyes to what is true.

Don't abandon what is good.

You are a beautiful you.

Made exactly the way you should.

I love you whoever you are.

Sincerely,

Stephanie

Summer!

It's summer! 
I'm SO happy and excited to see what this summer brings. I can't believe how far I've come, and how much I've grown from just a year ago. God has really taught me a lot this last year. I've learned about trust, redemption, love and forgiveness. I don't deserve this beautiful life. I don't deserve such an amazing God. I was talking with a friend yesterday and it's so hard to even grasp why Christ loves us despite our wrong doings. I'll just embrace it and try to become worthy. It shall be a summer to remember! 


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Facts

Hi, I'm Stephanie. 
I like the words holler, silly, perplexed and fathom.
I love film and everything to do with it. 
I secretly am very funny, but don't show that side often. 
Well, at least I think I'm funny. 
I love the color of my nails right now. They're like a bright pastel blue. 
I love Big Macs. I just finished one earlier. They're so good. 
I love my life, but it's far from perfect. 
A lot of times I don't like life at all, but quickly change my mind. 
Journals make me happy. Writing soothes me.
I drink tea almost every morning. 
I try not to be anything I'm not, but try to be everything I am.
Which can sometimes be a handful.
I currently am not in love; out of choice.
I'm finding that when I make stories and dream movies,
I pretend to be one of the characters and get everything 
I couldn't find in the real world in my imagination. 
I'm weird. Clearly. 
Things going through my mind right now: 
Typing. Letters. Holler to your red flag. I'm hungry. I have to finish typing. 
It's father's day and my dad is not home right now. Blue is so pretty.
Okay back to this.
I'm tired. I don't know what this post has to do with anything. 
But hey, now you know something more about me.
Have a nice day!

A Lovely Reminder

I logged onto Facebook to find this message from my dear friend Rachael Rutcowski. I can't even put into words how much I am grateful and touched at her efforts to remind me how valuable I (everyone) is.

Here was her message: 

We all know that God made us for a specific purpose.

We have an irreplaceable role in this world.

But I have a question for you to ponder.

Did you ever think maybe our names were given to us for a purpose too?

Of course some people have the same name, but the meaning describes each person differently.

Stephanie. Meaning? Crown.

Now you may think, how is that special?

This is my answer.

A crown is royalty’s prized possession.

You are a prized possession.

Every king has a crown that shows exactly who they are.

You are that crown for God.

You tell the world exactly who He is.

You play an important role for God because you are His crown.

You bring Him honor and give Him the glory.

You inspire people with your beauty and deeper meaning.

You do not just sit and look pretty, you serve a purpose and everyone knows whose you are.

You are God’s. His beloved.

It does not matter if you fall off sometimes or get a little dirty.

He picks you up, cleans you off, and puts you right back where you need to be.

Never forget how precious you are my shining crown.

I love you with all my heart.

Love,

Rach

To read Rachael's Blog "Authenticity of The Heart" click here.

Hmmm

I Wonder...

Written June 8, 2011; Dedicated to the wonderers

Time and time again, I wonder.

I wonder why love aches if it's supposed to heal.

I wonder if my dreams will ever become real.

I wonder why time flies. 

I wonder how love dies.

I wonder why I wonder.

I wonder if I'll reach my dreams.

I wonder if I'll keep my dreams.

I wonder if I'll fall in love.

I wonder if I won't.

I wonder if they wonder about me.

I wonder if this is where I'm supposed to be.

I wonder if I'll ever know.

I wonder where I'm supposed to go.

I wonder if the hurt goes away.

I wonder if they hear what I say.

I wonder when I'll ever feel content.

I wonder if my days are well spent.

I wonder if God really hears my cries.

I wonder if He smiles or He sighs.

I wonder if He really loves me;

even in my shame and vulnerability. 

As soon as I wonder He reveals His grace.

All my doubts vanish when I see His face.

And though my questions will continue to be made.

At least I know His love will never change.

Sincerely,

Stephanie

Here today, gone tomorrow

Life is like a vapor. We leave as quick as we enter. In time I'm finding it's not about the scent we possess  but the fragrance we leave behind. Part of growing up is learning the reality of life and death. Too often we forget this right now that we're living in will someday be a back then. This right now is not forever. This right now is not what life is built up to. Because a million right nows leads to one future. One meaning. One purpose. One forever. In the nowness comes a whisper. It sings life's mystery of what we know and will forever wonder. With the uncertainty of tomorrow, we wait. We wait for what we believe is forever. Because after this series of right nows comes a forever. An eternity of life and love. No more pain and sorrow. No weight of the chains that the earth pulls us down by. Free. In my unique case of right nows I'll make the best. I'll smile when I can, and laugh when somethings funny. I'll cry when I need to, and be courageous when I should. I'll do what I have to in order to leave behind a fragrance that will reflect the sweet smell of eternity that is calling my name. Life is beautiful. It's not perfect, but that's what makes it perfect. As I learn to say goodbye, I'll anticipate my next hello. 
When the right nows are over, and the forever becomes a now; that's what I'll live up to. R.I.P. Mr. Deane♥
Sincerely,
Stephanie