Film

You know when you love something so much you can do it all day? Something you're so passionate about that you couldn't see yourself doing anything else with your life? That's how I feel about film. (and God) I love it. I love filming, editing, everything (except setting up and the hours of slaving away on a computer). But my favorite thing to do is create stories. Since I was a little kid I'd fall asleep to a movie I create in my mind. I'd play it over and over, dissecting the plot, changing characters, even imagining the music I want in it. I would do all this in hopes of someday making it come to life someday. I thought it was very crucial to not forget any details of every story, in case I got my big break to make it. Of course, as I grew up I scrapped old stories and created new ones. Now, here I am with a much more developed way of thinking and large array of tools to potentially make something out of just an idea. With still loads to learn, and so much I have to do, I'm so excited to think I'm getting closer and closer to making things happen for once. This is my senior year, which means I could finally go to college for film next Fall. Right now, I'm only focused on two things; finishing editing the wedding I filmed, and starting to film my own project. I'm in the process of re-writing my script. I hope to finish that film sometime this year. Unlike past projects, I'm actually learning to be organized and have structure when making a project like this come to life. It's exciting, and I can't wait to hopefully see the final piece. You never know, you may see it me on the big screen someday! haha just kidding. Everything I do, I want to glorify my Savior.
I don't want to conform to the film industry, I want to transform it. 




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Cookies!

So proud to say I baked two dozen homemade chocolate-chip cookies and they're scrumptious. 

I love this quote

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.”

-Woody Allen

You Got My Back

Here For You

Written August 19, 2011; dedicated to everyone under the sun

Everytime your heart breaks

Bring it back to Me

I'll take away your heart ache

I'll set those feelings free

I'll wrap you up in My arms

I'll show you how I care

You'll be safe from all harm

I am always there

The reason that I care, my dear

When you hurt, I do too

Everytime you shed a tear

The rain falls down for you

It may feel like you lost them

But really they lost you

You are My beautiful gem

My love for you is true

I'm preparing you for a better story

The one that I have planned

It'll be wonderful in all it's glory

Then you'll understand

I'm here for you

Day and night

I love you

It'll be alright

Sincerely,

Your One True Love

"I'm here for you" He says, as He cradles me in His transparent arms. Sometimes all we want is to be alone, yet we're surrounded by people. Then there's times where we are incredibly lonely, in need of just one soul to share the moment with. You know what I'm talking about. Those times that feel wasted unless they're with another person. The, "two is better than one" moments. You sit there wondering, where on earth is Mr/Mrs. Right, right now?! It's these exact feelings that lead to an immense amount of impatience resulting to quick doses of artificially flavored love, that like the ingredients warn, is artificial. And then, when that mistake blows over we're faced with more moments to ponder why we're alone, and the cycle repeats itself. Of course, that's not always the case. Some people tough it out and can really save themselves the trouble and find joy in other areas. They learn to be patient because they know better than to sell themselves short. They know the consequences of a battered heart and the bruises that come with it. I guess I've been trying to be that person. I'm not humanly capable of perfecting this though. Not at all. I'm not naturally equipped to deal with things with my own understanding. That's where God comes into play. There I go doing my own thing, setting myself up for heartache, and there He is waiting to pick me up again. But each time He gives me the patience to overcome that struggle. I like to think of it like He's putting a bandaid on each wound. I say, "Sorry, I messed up. I'll try not to trip on that curb again." He smiles and replies with, "Alright Stephanie, if you think you're ready I'll let you go right ahead. But remember if you do fall, I'm here for you." He pats me on the back, and lets me try again. With His fatherly knowledge, He already knows where it's going. I guess He's not just waiting for me to learn my balance, but also to really rely on Him to make things better when I do trip. But it's not only the clumsy that need Him at all times. Everyone does. Whether you're strong, and need Him to keep you that way or if you're weak and you need Him to help you gain your strength. Trust me, I've tried all the other "cures" but His is the only one that works. I sound like a salesperson for an informercial, but let me assure you it doesn't cost five easy payments of $99.99; 

All it costs is your trust and time. 

Sincerely,

Stephanie

Until I See You...

Adolescence. 

you've been kind

you've been cruel

you've been lame

you've been cool

I know these years are quickly coming to pass, and before I know it they'll be just memories. It's hard to believe that when you have those "It's the end of the world!..." moments; in which many American teenagers are very familiar with. This summer has had an interesting way of turning lives upside down and shaking worlds. I've seen and experienced they way death can crawl from the shadows and enter into our delicate lives. Whether it be in a friend's life, a family member, or in my own life, death's sting is harsh and cold. And while we hold onto "there's a time for everything under the sun..." we also embrace the promise that this life is temporary and the pain will someday cease. I can't explain how amazing the love of Christ is, and how much I've found it more and more each day. This summer I told myself I wanted to fall in love with God more than ever. Let me tell you, no chick flick or cheesy song can suffice for the amount of passion between me and my Savior. It's the best love story to be apart of. And while you may think I'm being over cliche or too open with my love life, I beg to differ. It's something I can't help but share. I'm unashamed, as He was for me. Time and time again life's cut me deep. I searched for love, but always felt incomplete, unworthy, and defeated. I searched for peace and found a battle in my being. I searched for purpose, and found nothing but meaningless and empty promises. Why did I have to lose everything to realize I had all I needed? Empty. Broken. On the ground. There You were, all along.

And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away. 

Revelation 21:4

R.I.P. my beloved grandfather.