Lately... I feel as though my faith for God is strong but my soul is sick. So you know when you have a cold? You're entire body is affected and you feel icky and as if you're not your best. Nauseous even. You don't feel like doing anything when you're sick, and pretty much hate living in this ill body. Well, have you ever been soul sick? The symptoms are similar to that of a real cold, but more so spiritually. A healthy heart that's in tune with God is vibrant and SCREAMS confidence in Christ. Joy is abundant and mind is at peace. Well a sick soul is far from that. What's the cause of being soul sick? Relying on anything and everything but God. It's like loading yourself on junk food, and getting a tummy ache, never getting the proper nutrients of our necessity foods. It can look like filling up the gaping hole with people, food, clothes, money, music, school, work, stress...anything that fills it up. Sometimes we think that a boy texting us is all we need to get us through. There's been times I've ran to junk food hoping it can just comfort me while the storm passes. Or even times I relied on my appearance to suffice for my inside. Like the more I look good on the outside, the more myself and others think I'm good on the inside. When really, that's not how I feel. Life plays in fast forward, and I never took time to rest my soul, find peace and serenity in Christ, GET my fill on the word...and I got soul sick. God is close by, and I feel it. But it's me that's far away from being where I should be. Constantly the Lord reminds me my NEEDINESS for Him. He shows me how unsatisfying everything else really is. It's a lesson I can't learn enough. And the moment I have that rude awakening where I realize how unhappy I really am with myself, how shallow I've been and selfish...His overwhelming love pours in and says, "It's okay. You slipped, now don't keep playing with fire. Reach for my hand again. Quick. I forgive you, now embrace what I've been trying to show you." And so I do. Sometimes I need to be knocked down. I need some humility. That's the medicine. Christ is the cure. It's a road to recovery each time. And each time I get stronger and more immune to Satan's path and plot to deter my character.
It's a good thing God gives me health insurance.
Sincerely,
Stephanie
