It's a Learning Process

Knowledge never ceases to enter your life, bringing with it some moving lessons. I'm reading a book called "Adolescence Isn't Terminal" by Kevin Leman. So far, it's actually really interesting. It's written for parents to understand their growing teenager, but I thought why not see what a professional has to say. We always feel like it's the end of the world, when the smallest thing doesn't go our way. I used to anticipate the day I'd "grow up" and no longer feel like I have so much to learn. I used to want to press forward in time, and just grow up. But I realized, these are the moments and times I'll wish I could re-live, and always remember. I'm living now, so why not make the best of it? 

I don't know if I'll live to grow older than the seconds to come. God put me on this earth for a reason, I have a purpose. If I can do the best I can for him, I should be doing it at all times. Even if that means when I'm a hormonal teenage girl. Honestly, these days you don't see many fired up teenagers about sharing the gospel, and living COMPLETELY for Christ. Too much of their hearts belong to the world, and their earthly desires. I would know, for the longest time I lived just like the majority. Only looking out for my benefits, and what I wanted. But sometimes when we get what we want, and not what we need, we're left confused and empty. I watched myself disintegrate and let myself become a complete stranger. The moment you lose who you are, and what you believe and live for, the possibilities of danger are endless. But I have a Savior who loves me to protect me from the world, and guard my heart. I redefined myself, and what I wanted to do with my life. I'm learning by the bundles, and always am amazed at how God reveals his majestic ways each and every day. It's much more rewarding and fulfilling living for cause, and seeking truth, in all aspects of your life. I want to be a light to those who are stumbling in the darkness. I want to show them what I have. I want to share this amazing gift I've been given. I want them to see, Him through me. That's my purpose. To love, like he loved, and live like he lived. It's like I always say, I will always follow the light as long as my heart beats. I have no idea how God will use me in the world, but I know my calling is for girls just like me, and people who have lost hope. Jesus can give them the hope, they never found in humanity. If I can be a tool for God, and let him cleanse my soul, in order for me to lead and direct, then so be it. I will do whatever needs to be done to follow the path my Father lay before me. It's much greater than any scenario I can make up. "You want to make God laugh? Tell him your plans." 


"Humanity will fail you, Jesus won't. Humanity will forget you, Jesus won't. Humanity will leave you, Jesus won't. Humanity won't forgive you, Jesus will. Humanity won't love you, Jesus will. Humanity wouldn't die for you, but Jesus did." Steven Khoshaba