Awol

"Stephanie, where have you been?" Hello reader. I know I don't post as frequent as I used to, but it's for all good intentions I promise. Not long ago I realized something; I write/talk more about how to be happy, how to live a Christ-like life, being confident, yet I don't practice it as much I speak it. Not necessarily in a hypocritical way, but more so I don't apply what I know to it's full potential. Let me explain.
I would always tell people that they needed to trust God in all things. I'd talk about how you can't put your faith in people and live for a boy or girl. I believed every word I said, and did do it for the most part. The thing I was lacking most though, was authenticity and intimacy. Do you ever talk about God more than to God? I did it all the time. I'd trust Him to be in control of my life, yet I was the director. I would limit talking to Him, because I so badly liked to be in control of the scene. Writing the story and choosing what happens. But then I noticed something else. As soon as I started to think of myself more in control than God, I began to lose my ground and get frustrated when my mapped out life went off course. I'd sit in angst and self-pity wondering why life is so confusing? Then, in the middle of my dismay, that quiet whisper that I love so dearly echoed in my soul. "My love, you need to trust me. Talk with me. This world is messed up but REMEMBER that I have overcome it!" With this wakeup call, I've transformed my routine of small talk before meals and bed-time, and gained a best friend that I can have the deepest and most freeing conversations with.
The moment you realize that prayer isn't words being released into mid-air, and can be a powerful and beautiful privilege; you'll unlock the key to a relationship that's been buried in your heart. Let me tell you, this last few weeks I've experienced God on a whole new level. I'm taking everything I know and have always spoke about and applying it. 
Do you dare to unveil the true potential your relationship with Christ could be? The moment I chose to live in authenticity and accepted an invitation to an incredible and glorious journey with the maker of the universe, I experienced something beyond this world. I call it the little piece of Heaven locked inside my heart. God placed it there deep in the crevasses so that I will experience a molecule and always want more of it, remembering that this is my temporary home. I get pretty restless and impatient when waiting to someday be free of this world and it's turmoil, yet all that distress evaporates when the Lord reminds me I need to be here for a purpose. It would be selfish of me to take this gift I've so undeservingly been blessed with and not try and share it with the world in this little time I have here. So, that's where I've been. Living it up and learning so much. I'm amazed and excited at what Christ is going to do in my life and how He'll use me. He can use you too. Give Him a try. I dare you to ask Him. Try really talking to Him...I warn you, your whole outlook and life may change when allowing the creator of the universe to be in complete control.


Sincerely,
Stephanie