Sincerely, Me

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Written September 23, 2011; For those who seek but have not yet found

Once upon a time, I cared what you thought

I transformed into a mold of everything I'm not 

I'd try to fit it, when I was meant to stand out 

Any confidence I had turned into self-doubt 

I was just like you, I understand human pain 

I wondered too what I was supposed to gain 

I played all my cards 

Pushed all my luck

And when times got hard 

I felt completely stuck 

I'd look in a mirror 

Find all the flaws 

Trying to find who to blame 

Claiming God to be the cause 

I grew angry and weak 

Frail and meek

I ran to anything that could sooth the pain 

It didn't last long till I grew insane 

I thought I was running to a better solution 

But instead I was running from the only conclusion 

Why would I believe in something I can't see?

Until my eyes were opened, I too could not believe 

What once was a myth became the only possibility 

Once a theory, now a reality 

I promise I'm not delusional 

Or completely lost my mind 

I'm simply sharing what I've found 

And what you're trying to find 

And when you start to judge 

I will never budge 

I've tasted the truth

And there's no turning back 

I will spread the good news 

I'm on the right track 

Dear stranger I wish you the best 

I hope you find what you're looking for 

As for me I will rest 

And know I have to search no more

Sincerely,

Stephanie