Bittersweet

Pause. When life is moving fast and moments pass, we barely take a moment to stop and embrace what we just lived. I long for a great future, to be used for the Lord, to find love someday, to become a strong and inspiring woman. I have dreams and have left room for the uncertain. I often am always looking ahead of time, and occasionally stopping to look into the present, to really soak it in. Sometimes, it's painful to look back into the past. There's things we were more than happy to say goodbye to, or maybe didn't want to say goodbye to. There's feelings we've tried to burry underneath the layers of time and new horizons. Sometimes, all we want to do is look forward and forget where we came from and how we got there. The hard things we go through stick more than the good. But on those occasions where my happy side overrides my pessimist side, I look back because I want the good to live on. It's like going through an old album. Moments that were captured to bring back the smile that once was. I tell myself to disregard where that person or place may be now, in order to remember just what was in that exact time. The smiles, the laughter, the hugs, the kisses, the dreams, and the unforgettable memories. We can either choose to ache that they're not here anymore, or be thankful that they ever were. Because it's the sweet collection of all the bittersweet moments that led you right here. I wouldn't change who I am now, or where I am. I mean that whole heartedly. I don't want to re-live what was. I just want to remember it, smile, and continue to make more of those moments. 
Your happiness depends on how you choose to look at what was, what is, and what it will become.
Sincerely,
Stephanie