The Declaration of Confidence

If you're a dedicated follower of my blog, I apologize for all these love posts. But there's just so much I'm learning that I need to tell you! 


Girl.

I've been the girl that no one noticed or wanted. I'd judge the girls that had so many guys around them, and say how desperate they all must be. But what I was really thinking was, "I can't even get one guy to look at me, let alone juggle more than one." I was jealous, envious, frustrated, lonely and insecure. Then things changed. I got attention, and even if it was the bad kind, I wouldn't let it go. I fed off it. I've also been the girl who's been pursued by someone I didn't necessarily feel the same way about. I've been the girl that saw something she wanted and would do anything for it. Wanting someone that doesn't even barely acknowledge you exist. Sister mode. I've also mutually felt something for someone and had to let that go. No matter how much I justified each encounter, as to why "they should be the one," they're not here next to me to testify it was worth it. Worth the tears, worth the pain...And while I do have regrets, I apply my own medicine as well as the Truth from His word, and tell you each regret has led me to learn something valuable. 
Be something worth chasing. Don't ever, ever, ever, run after a boy. Build yourself up. He didn't love you? That doesn't mean no one ever will. Dispose of the lies, and embrace the truth. Unfortunately, I learned the hard way in different accounts, that you should never settle. The world may be quick to judge and disregard my worth. But I know what I'm worth. Christ has shown me. My value is not defined by the world's standards of something worth fighting for. With an eternal perspective, and a pure heart, God overfills my cup with great dignity and refinement. No matter how many have trampled over your feelings, or maybe even how much you've stepped over them, you are still capable of becoming something wonderful. Don't wait for the boy to come along and tell you that for you to believe it. When he comes along you should be able to say, "Oh, trust me, I know what I am." Conceited? No. Confident.  After all, confidence is the most attractive thing one can possess. 


The Declaration of Confidence


I,  __________, am the most beautiful girl in the world. I am confident and strong. And though I'm not perfect, it doesn't get better than me. For those who missed out, and those who walked out, thank you. It's because of you I have learned valuable lessons. My mistakes are what make me wiser, stronger, and more resilient to your lies. I can smile today, just because I can. You don't hold me captive. Your standards and your expectations are meaningless to me. I'm not lying to myself by saying all this to make myself feel better. I'm simply stating the longly overdue truth. And I don't need anyone to tell me that. I am royalty. I am a princess. I wish you the best.., oh wait, I am the best. 


Sincerely,
NOT your property 


Now, that may have sounded a bit absurd and over the top. But it's all true. You are beautiful, my dear. You are worth it. Worth the fight. Don't ever settle for less. Take it from someone who understands completely, they'll never satisfy you. But Christ will. 


Stephanie