Broken Mirror

It's a mystery how life works. I had a big mirror in front of me for the longest time. It reflected everything the world told me I was, and who I should be. This past Summer, a huge portion was shattered. All that was left was the tiny pieces on the edges. The last piece has just fallen off. Now, there is nothing holding me back from totally walking freely. I couldn't have done this without the grace of the Lord with me. His hand holding mine tightly, each day as I walk through life, learning, seeking and finding. But in my game of hide and seek, I'm finding all the things I had put to rest a while ago. Memories of my childhood...Of the "innocent" days. I always wished I could just go back. But now I see it differently. These times, these experiences, these people, are shaping me up into someone I never thought I could be. I'm so thankful for everyone in my life right now. God has placed them all for a specific purpose. Things that once mattered, and once meant everything to me, no longer have a grip on me. It's part of our instincts to want to fix every situation and problem that comes in our view. But take it to God, for He can do so much more than we can. He sees deeper than the shallow end of our conscience. He sees the inner struggles we face. He sees everything. It's okay to suffer an entire night, as long as we look forward to a morning of gratefulness and joy. These pains, these trials we endure, are the reminders to not stray, and look to Him at all times. A friend told me to listen to the song Innocent, by Taylor Swift. I'll tell ya, that girl sure knows how to relate to so many out there. It's never too late to start over. So, now that my new chapter has begun, it's good to know that I've finally come at peace that I can't fix everything on my own. I'll leave it to God to make something beautiful, out of complete chaos.

Taylor Swift "Innocent" Lyrics

I guess you really did it this time

Left yourself in your warpath
Lost your balance on a tightrope
Lost your mind tryin’ to get it back

Wasn’t it easier in your lunchbox days?
Always a bigger bed to crawl into
Wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything?
And everybody believed in you?

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not what you’ve been
You’re still an innocent
You’re still an innocent

Did some things you can’t speak of
But tonight you’ll live it all again
You wouldn’t be shattered on the floor now
If only you had seen what you know now then

Wasn’t it easier in your firefly-catchin’ days?
And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you
Wasn’t it beautiful runnin’ wild ’til you fell asleep?
Before the monsters caught up to you?

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights is still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not what you’ve been
You’re still an innocent

It’s okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
You’re still an innocent

Time turns flames to embers
You’ll have new Septembers
Every one of us has messed up too

Lives change like the weather
I hope you remember
Today is never to late to
Be brand new

It’s all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you’ve been
You’re still an innocent

It’s okay, life is a tough crowd
32, and still growin’ up now
Who you are is not what you did
You’re still an innocent
You’re still an innocent

Lost your balance on a tightrope
It’s never too late to get it back