A New Chapter

It's time for a new beginning. Out with the old and in with the new. My past is gone, and it will never replay itself. I can't go back in time, and I can't change anything. Coming to realize this fact is true, I've been able to finally move forward to the next chapter. So I turn the page of old, and get my pen ready, because it's time for something fresh. After the Thirsty retreat, I've really felt like I need to start over, and that's exactly what I'm doing. I poured out my weaknesses and guilt, and even though I had known God forgave me a long time ago, I wasn't ready to forgive myself. I know in a lot of things we must forget to forgive. But in some things, we may forgive, but we can't forget. I don't think I'll ever forget the pain I once held deep within. It must be used as a constant reminder of what straying away feels like. Each time I feel the sting of the past, I get my comfort right away from God, and everything is okay. So I took advantage of that opportunity to pour my heart out at the foot of the cross, and now I have nothing holding me back from totally pursuing my Creator. It's a wonderful feeling. I often sit in my bed now and just cry tears of joy. I'm so thankful, and I'm not ashamed to say it. I'll shout it out to the world, and let it be known of my rescue and how great God is to me, and all who follow His path. I'll never achieve perfection, and I don't aspire to. This love, this fire can easily die out if I don't maintain it. I don't think I can go a day without talking to Him. I have so much ahead of me, and I no longer want to think too much into the future; I just want to focus on what He was for me today. Don't lose sight of the opportunities given everyday.

 I used to always wonder and daydream, and there's nothing wrong with that. But when it starts to determine your daily decisions, and how you feel, it has to be taken care of. I want to live each day with eternal gratefulness. I never want to lose this closeness. People come and go, but my Father Christ is always by my side. I want people to see that joy I have, given by Him. I read a poem recently that really made me think, and just be taken away by the way things can turn out when we let Jesus take the wheel. The poem was written in the perspective of Christ talking to His children about finding true love. I fell in love with it, and it all makes perfect sense. Until we are totally and completely satisfied and in love with Him, will He allow us to experience the "Perfect Love" He has planned for us. To be honest, I totally believe that we are meant for one person. That destiny does exist. I also believe that we often ruin the plan, and the pathway to that person when making our thoughtless decisions, and fall for temptation. We rush too quickly at the first sight of "possible" love, and lose the chances of "real" love. I mean, I don't know what is good for me, and what is out there. So I'll let Him bring the right one to me. In the right time. For now, I have other things to worry about. Like what I can do in my day and age to spread the great news. Yeah, newness is in the air, and it's bringing with it a sweet fragrance.

The Perfect Love

(author unknown)

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone to have a

deep soul relationship with another to be loved thoroughly and

exclusively. But God, to a Christian says:

"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved

by Me alone -- with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me --

with having an intensely personal and unique relationship

with Me alone. Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction

to be found, will you be capable of the perfect human relationship

that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another,

until you are united with Me -- exclusive of anyone or anything else,

exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning,

stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing --

one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow

Me to bring it to you. You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest

things -- keep experiencing the satisfaction that I am. Keep listening and

learning the things I tell you.

You just wait.

That's all.

"Don't be anxious. Don't worry. Don't look around at the things others

have gotten or that I have given them. Don't look at the things you think

you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you'll miss

what I want to show you."

"And then, when you're ready, I'll surprise you with a love far more

wonderful than any you would dream of. You see, until you're ready

and until the one I have for you is ready, until both of you are satisfied

exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you, you won't be able to

experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and this

is the perfect love.